my fabricated reality

moni moni moni

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 07:49:52 GMT

I've been getting calls from multi-billionaire aussies asking the condition of their multi-billion investments. And as agreed, i go read the BS script and spiels .."our balance sheets are in excess of blah blah blah trillion dollars" .. life continues.
Sooo, what's happening to the world? Where are all the monis going? Diba dapat umiikot lang yon?
Swerte pa pala ako't nagka-increase. weird.. so bakit humihina ang ekonomiya ng halos lahat ng bansa? My puny little mind cant grasp wassap.

xx

the signs
are showing i am truly, genuinely stressed to the point of depression. I would love to continue typing this if not for the nosy by-standers behind me

f you want it, you can have it but you've got to learn to reach out there and grab it

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 09:50:11 GMT

I'm now looking for a good multimedia arts school. Meron ka bang mairerekumenda?

I've told my boss I have plans of leaving (paunahan daw kami) and that I'm uh, shamelessly just waiting for my tax refund and my 13th month pay
I think they have multimedia arts sa CSB at meron din sa UP Open Uni at na-google ko ang firstacedemy.net..
i'm still a bit unsure pero for sure konting push lang gagawin ko din to. But uh, i dont know :T as far as multimedia arts is concerned, the most advanced i've done was superimposing my good friend Manuel's face onto Jenna Jameson's body, pero kaya nga magaaral diba?
Wish me luck wish me luck!

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 00:54:06 GMT

potangenang fete de la musique yan. tarantado yong mga gorillang bouncers nila. tsk tsk poor bastard pero kupal kasi eh. ayan tuloy nademanda kayo. haaay. anyway, excited na ko sa reunion! wahoo!!

somebody save me

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 09:11:16 GMT

Help! I think I'm stagnating! I always feel depressed and I hate myself for always complaining nonstop all the time round the clock. I feel like wala nang positive energy na nagcicirculate sa sistema ko. irritate me i hate me! At wala na kong sense of humor. And my life revolves around Heroes (and my boyfriend, sometimes.. because we dont see each other every time. and because all he thinks about and breathe for is that freakin game DOTA) Argh!!! I need a hobby. I should join Haribon or Greenpeace or something.

things to do

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 06:58:20 GMT

buy aircon
test drive food business
save up save up save up 500-1000/m
ipod/dock hiyeah right
buy oven
continue saving
pagandahin bahay at ibenta/ipa-rent to own
resign
relocate somewhere with less hustle and bustle
ituloy ang wwf memship??
be a full time entreprenoooor
get a tan
inhale/exhale, sabihin "all you can be you are today" repeat hanggang ma-gets

body malaise malays

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 03:39:09 GMT

ang sakit ng katawan ko. i feel sick. kagagaling ko lang sa 4day vacay pero ang bigat ng katawan ko. weird. \\

lunurin mo ako sa ligaya

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 08:22:55 GMT

Punyeta talaga gusto ko pang bumalik sa dagat. Hindi nyo ba alam na I'm glowing! i'm glowing! (Ive got Christopher as my witness). Kung mag post man ako ng picture ay hindi nya mabibigyan ng hustisya ang glow ng aking balat. Makikita nyo lang kung gaano ako kataba. Hahaha! Kailangan ko ng dagat. I need to feel the sand between my toes, the sea weeds between my klivejg (sa pwet) and the rush of surfacing after a 10mile-deep sisid. Ang kati ng likod ko, namamalat na kasi ang aking sunburn. Hoooow. Nung isang araw ay naligo ako sa swimming pool sa aming bakuran sa pagasang maiibsan nya ang panggigigil ko sa dagat pero hindi, alang gana. or dahil mag isa lang ako.
Gusto kong bumaliiiiik. Kahit wala ng magic mushroomzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzoomzoomzoom

feeling warm all over

Mon, 17 Mar 2008 07:59:02 GMT

Spent our fourth at Puerto Galera. It was so peaceful when we got there. Not tranquil, tahimik lang. Nag-enjoy kami ng sobra. I can't wait for our next out of town trip. He's going with me to Palawan this May. I can't wait for you to see the place. :-)

*Siiigh* I wanna resign na. Part of me feels like I really belong to the islands. But you're here. So when we went to Galera i thought ohmygod this is perfect. Got the best of both worlds. Sayang one day lang perfect ang mundo ko.
Itapon nyo ko sa dagat!

out of town trip, sa wakas

Sun, 09 Mar 2008 12:11:38 GMT

eto na ang simula ng katuparan ng mga pangarap. haha! Pumunta kami ng Tagaytay kanina. Me with Edson and Pipay and her family. Kumain kami sa Sonya's Garden kung saan ang lahat ay organic. Sariwa. Just like us. Haha! Ang saya saya! Ang ganda ng hardin ni Sonya at naki-chitchat pa sya sa min. Hahaha! Saan ka pa makakakita ng makakatalo kay Machete? Wala na! Dito lang! Ebidensiya:

more pictures here: http://donnabeybi.multiply.com/photos/album/10.
I love my thesis mates. What a breather. Akala ko ay mamamatay na ko sa kahectican ng trabaho. Thank you Pipay. Glamorrr ka talagang bakla ka. :)

Next week naman Puerto Galera! Yahooow! Im going with Harris! Excited we both are! Fourth year special.. wow.

Ay mali

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 01:48:22 GMT

So, it appears this journal has not been hacked at all.. Eheheh.. ^_^``

Pupunta kaming puerto galera wahooo! ohmygodohmygodohmy! Excited na us! Happy fourth happy happy! Yeah!

happy days are here again

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 22:50:22 GMT

ako at si harris ay pupunta sa rakawards hiyeheyeah! hehe. excited na akong mapanood ang razorback. *jumps trinity-style* sino-sino kaya ang mga mananalo? im rooting for typecast para manalo ng song of the year dahil pabito namin ni Harris ang kanilang kanta dahil sa hindi malamang rason. ^_________________^ at sa sabado ay bibili ako ng chucks dahil naisip ko na ako na lan g ata ang taong walang ganoong sapatos. hehe. at sa 29 at 30 ay aabsent ako para lakarin ang nawala kong passport, pero palusot lang yun para pumetiks at tumambay sa katipunan area. with or without you. dahil ayaw mo naman magpupupunta doon. malapit na kaming magtagpo ng mga isaw ng UP. Ganoon pa din kaya sila kasarap? Masatisfy kaya nila ako? Haha! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Wala lang, masaya lang ako. At hindi ko iintindihin ang mga Australiano at mga Vietnamese na tumatawag na sumisira ng araw ko. Hyeheh. Rakawards rakawardsrakawardsrakawardsrakawardsrakawardsrakawards!!!!!!!!!!!!

wagi talaga ang postsecret

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 04:14:44 GMT

imagen taken fr postsecret syempre

because you dont know this journal exists...

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 13:43:31 GMT

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH HARRIS! probly twice as much as you love me.. let's grow old together.

baguio, cameras and other shallow randomness

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 13:18:30 GMT

still no picture beeyotches. heh.
Well, needless to say, Baguio sucked the breath out of our lungs. And what better place to take pictures dabah? Ma brought her cam and i brought mine as well. my love camera given by my lover boy. aint he the sweetest? Actually delayed ne toh dahil nung birthday ko pa nya binigay yun hahah. anyways, wala naman akong masyadong pictures dahil hangang ngayon wala pang sd card si love camera O_O. bukas pa lang kami bibili. hehe. and yung cd na pix from ma's camera ay sabog. ayaw nyang iopen yung ibang files so parang wala din.
And about my pc, actually ok lang kahit magcrash to death na sya basta makuha ko lang yung mga pictures and my music collection and college essays, yes, college essays i treasure them philo/psych essays.

anyways anyways.. me currently loves....
*cherry flavored chupachups
*mcdonalds hash browns
[my gad, kelan pa ako papayat diba? ok lang sexy naman haha labo ewan]
*colored eyeliners!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love the electric blue one. very deadly!
*feisty bitches shoes! actually this one, hindi ko pa sya natatamasa.. ang mamahal kasi nila at kulang ang budget ng quasi-pooritang katulad ko. basta after xmas, my room will soon be filled with hot pink, blood red, strappy, bejeweled sky-high stilletos and wedges. i think this boho stint is getting old, and my style must adapt to the environment im in now.. but not to the point na mukha na kong generic makati struggler. ofcourse, the donna factor will still be there. meaning jologs pa din ang dating. haha!
*luxurious lingerie. i may not have those state of the art gadgets, fools.. but it's a-ok because... ;P

i'm beginning to.. uh, appreciate my job now. to think that it pays very well and it's not on a night shift, the aussies are nice except for some nasty irate ones, and we have pizza every so often. it's all good. especially every pay day. hehe. and its nice to know something about finance. yuck ano ba to. but seriously, it's all good. i think its good to know what arrears and mortgages and all those shiz are. makes mer very valuable. bwahahaha. ngeks.. basta i think i'm thriving.. tingin ko. about the office mates.. well, it's sad that most of my batch mates got transferred to a diff department. pero ok lang. hindi naman mga banshees ang mga naiwan. thank you universe.

the long and winding wait

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 04:13:48 GMT

this journal needs my tlc. one of these days i'll sell my old pc and buy a new one. perhaps a notebook. ..as in yung notebook na may cover na picture ng artista. haha.
my old pc died on me two nights ago. it's now disaster beyond repair me thinks. naiwan kasing nakabukas overnight and nagising na lang ako na may tunog ng flatline.. sana maayos pa. i have tons of pictures there that i havent uploaded yet. sayang naman kung hindi sila masisilayan ng madla :o)

anyhoo, about a week ago ata, we went to baguio ng balikan. goodness nangarag talaga ako i swear!!
but it was so much fun because i went with my mom, my pamangkin, meann, and my handydandyHarhar üüü and the gulay ohmygulay was so mura. imagine isang sakong sayote ay tag 100 bucks. at ngayon ko lang nalaman na ang sayote pala ay tumutubo sa baging.. or vine. at mukha syang green-colored ball(s) pag hindi pa pinipitas. hahahaha!

and hiyeah...... dati ko pagn sinasabi na i need a makeover but till now la pang nangyayari hehe. i dont know, i have beach hair and it looks so gorgeous right now.. kaya i dont know kung papaputol ko and ipastraight.. maybe yes for the sake of innovation. after all kapangalan ko si madonna nyehe.

Randal randal

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 03:15:02 GMT

You sound like an asshole! Jesus, nobody twisted your arm to be here. You're here of your own volition. You like to think the weight of the world rests on your shoulder. Like this place would fall apart if Dante wasn't here. Jesus, you overcompensate for having what's basically a monkey's job. You push fucking buttons. Anybody can just waltz in here and do our jobs. You-You're so obsessed with making it seem so much more epic, so much more important than it really is. Christ, you work in a convenience store, Dante! And badly, I might add! I work in a shitty video store, badly as well. You know, that guy Jay's got it right, man. He has no delusions about what he does. Us, we like to make ourselves seem so much more important than the people that come in here to buy a paper, or, god forbid, cigarettes. We look down on them as if we're so advanced. Well, if we're so fucking advanced, what are we doing working here?

getting paid for my perfect accent...

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 10:50:17 GMT

It's official. I'm now part of the world's largest financial institution. they're the one who came up with the ATM, people. And they financed the i dont know in particular in canal de panama and the foist evah railroad in the lend ovda roising sunny. hehe. But I'm gonna keep my dirty fingers crossed pa rin coz i'm still a trainee pa.
Ano ba, i dont know what to write. I mean, how do you blog? Hahaha! Tagal na kasi. Anyway, we're a funky lot, my co-trainees and I. Lotsa single mommies and daddies. and a real old timer of a daddy, we have a canadian pastry chef who cant stop enumerating the stuff he used for his special marinade while we're all jammed inside the elevator (rosemary, thyme, potato, pepper, salt olive oil coffee beans paprika msg chongke sinigang mix etc etc), there's the atenean guy.. man, you can feel the tension between us. sexual tension, that is. hahaha joke! la nga eh, such a snob. what else? yun lang.
perks?
day shift kami. wahoo!
dami dami pera
no dresscode whatsoever

the catch?
how do you understand them aussies???? we watched an australian movie kanina and i cant understand a single word theyre saying! All i can understad's mate mate mate. and bloke too. it's so different from the way Chris and I text each othah. hahaha.
hmm............

to make work more interesting. the boyfriend should watch out. but no worries, harris is still the one i heart. peksman.

dahil wala akong life..

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 05:09:36 GMT

Grey's Anatomy Time!

PRESTON: "Cristina, I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you. I could promise to be there, in sickness and in health. I could say till death do us part. But I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope. I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic. I am not hopeful. I am sure. I am steady. I'm a heart man. Take 'em apart, put 'em back together, hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this, I am sure. You are my partner. My lover. My very best friend. My heart. My heart beats for you. And on this day, the day of our wedding, I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands, I promise you... me."

i loved the scene in their season finale [season 2?] where Yang held Burke's hand without saying aword. i dont know, i think i like cristina. but the best scene (which is also the saddest): Izzie beside Denny. tsaka yung bumaba silang 3 ni george sa stairs na din.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 04:58:43 GMT

El Nido.
we went there. maganda. hindi ako ang kumuha ng pic na ito, dl'd from the net.

Fab Fab Fab

Thu, 03 May 2007 05:50:09 GMT

hindi ba talga na-upload?? anyway, gwapo gwapo! rrrrrrrrr!!!!

Thu, 03 May 2007 05:21:22 GMT

dear niggaz,

ngayong malaya na ko, masaya ang buhay. kahapon pumunta akong canlubang laguna at suminghot ng grass fire smoke at semi-provincial alikabok. i got lucky kaya nakapanuod pa ko ng free movies sa bus [jeric raval & robin padilla+ana rocess early 90s pinoy action flicks] amputang yan, bigla ka na lang matatawa sa post coital scenes tas biglang may linyang "mahal din kita, cross my heart." hahaha! ang sarap sana magbyahe at mag take ng mag take ng pictures or magvideo ng sarili while saying'im on my way to tacloban at pupuntahan ko ang isa sa mga unexplored dive sites ng pilipinas, samahan nyo ako sa paglalakbay na to at blablabla.ok cut retouch then ka-ching$$$. i wish i could make a living out of it. but i know hindi mangyayari yun, coz i dont have the balls. kung kupal at epal lang ako at ma-PR naging travel host ess na ko at aliw ang buhay. at dahil super eengot engot ako tinanggihan ko yung trabaho na destined sa bicol or marinduque na ngayon naiisip ko ok din naman yun ah. siguro malabo pa din ang isip ko, kaya kelangan ko muna talgang umuwi sa amin. pero ayoko maburo sa bahay. tangina maganda ang palawan, dapat ko itong suyurin. yeah, gagawin ko to this summer. sana ma-share ko kay harris kung gano kaganda ang palawan. pumunta kaming bulacan nung linggo at pupunta kaming tagaytay ngayong linggo. naaaliw akong bumyahe. naaaliw din akong bumyahe kasama sya. sana makagat kami ng travel bug at maisipan naming lumipad papuntang hawaii or south africa. basta. para mangyari to kelangan namin ng pera, so kelangan magpaka-sellout. kaya kelangan ng trabahong mataas ang sweldo. sa totoo lang di ko naman talga naiisip ang career growth (sa ngayon) kung papipilin ako kung what do i want, do i want a career or a high payin job, pipiliin ko yung asa hulihan. ;] pero nung asa office ako muka namang papasa akong mapromote ng mapromote ng mapromote ng mapromote. ang labo.

otha news, naaaliw ako sa music ni nelly furtado, sa it right.. at little man tate!!!

this is the last song

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 04:40:31 GMT

lst day ko na pala nung friday. hay, kala ko mamaya pa.
so i left accenture, albeit [martinez], with a heavy heart. naiyak ako sa card na ginawa nila for me. mahirap din pala tong ginawa ko. narealize ko malakilaki din utang na loob ko sa mga tao ng project namin. mamimiss ko yung.. kwentuhan kwentuhan tas biglang punchline, then another punchline, tas another, then another.. tas biglang tatahimik. hehe. basta!

currrent currents

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 05:33:25 GMT

Huyeah, resignation's effective May 1.

So, Mr. manager went "So, bakit ka aalis?"
Then I went like "I'm going to school again, sir. I'm planning to either take up a masteral studies in Clinical Psychology or take a few units in education"
Then he was like "Bakit hindi ka na lang mag-MBA while working here?"

"That's an option, sir, but I made up my mind.. an MBA degree would be nice, Though.." (lul)

What followed was a blur of slurs and eklat chuvaness.. in the end pinayagan din ako. What was that he said before? Disposable lang kami? ;D Ooh.. tsk tsk. Actually may point is ogag.

So, masters, huh?

Saan naman ang school ko? Sa Palawan with my hommies (a.k.a my pamangkins). Woohoo! Hehe.
Went there last Sat to attend my bro's Reggae/Earth Day shiz sa aming humble, uh, resort [if you can call it azzutch] -he organized this daw, almost singlehandedly. And with bikini open chuvaness pa daw ito. Wow, diba? So nanlimos ako ng tix kay muds then fly away na ako. Hmm.. OK naman, tumugtog lang yung banda ng pinsan ko. Hehe. Masaya!!! Dahil naka maraming maraming bote kami ng pamangkin ko and walang natumba. Grabe, kids grow up soooo fast. and cool lang kay daddy cool. Beer Galore. Zenkyoo Spensor SMB! Mwah!

So there, chillax muna for 2 months.

Other news- safeness for 3 months heh dahil under renovation ang gurlalu cycle ko and nakakatawa dahil.. well nakakatawa basta.

Nakakaiyak. Wala pa kong pangkodakan hangang ngayon. still dependin on my mum's cam and hindi ko man lang mapost dito ang mga pix na kinuha ko [nhuks, parang kapost post].

Other other news:
Pupunta kaming Tagaytay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Woooooooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!
Huwala lang ;)

uh!

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 10:34:01 GMT

i'm an idiot. it's office hours and im here in netopia surfing the net. well, reading blogs actually. my boss is gonna fry my skull!!!! wut?

Ziggyzagyziggyzaggy

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 11:44:00 GMT

Mahilig mang-inggit ang kuya ko sa text. Hobby nya yun, inggitin ako na masarap kilawin na ginawa nya, nag-ihaw sila ng sariwang sariwang seafoods, mga bagay tungkol sa aking mga pamangkin, etc etc. Astig ang kuya ko, salamat sa kanya nakilala ko si Bob Marley (c/o his inuman sessions every afternoon na may reggae na background music). Astig sya at hobby nyang inggitin ako. Time for revenge. So tinext ko sya kahapon: “Kuya Ian dito kami sa Westin. Nood kaming concert ni ZIGGY MARLEY. Saya!!”

Nang-inggit ka pa! Bili kang CD pasignan mo padala mo dito!

Ang saya saya talaga kagabi! If you can remember how happy and excited you felt when you were a child opening birthday presents left and right, multiply that feeling by 1,000 (plus 10,000 joints) and that’s exactly the overall feeling of last night. Best gig ng aking young life! Lotsa lotsa yummy isla chicas, hot hot papis in aviator shades (na nakakadoble ng kagwapuhan), dreadlockd rastas, foreynjers, and red gold & green everywhere. Lumuwa mata namin ni Harris, lalo na sya nung nakita nya si Borgy, hahahaha! Laman laman laman! Best gig talaga kahit na dun lang kami sa area ng mga mortals (600 vs. 1800)! Kung kay Lester pa, “ang ayos ng gig. Walang mga mahirap.” Hehehe ;P

Woo T*ngina, that’s Ziggy, mon! Ziggy Ziggy Ziggy! Ibang iba ang pakiramdam pag sya ang nakikita mong nasa stage at hindi na mga talentadong Pinoy/Pinay na nagto-toasting, maiba naman. I love them all Pinoy reggae acts (well, most of them at least :P). pero how many times do I get to see the seed of Bob perform live? It was a spiritual experience with the energy he sends out. From the father to the son to the people. If there’s somebody worthy of singing Bob Marley’s songs of freedom, it was definitely Ziggy and nobody else. Nobody else can give them justice like he does. Ang ganda ng crowd nung Getup Standup (Oyoy, Oyoyoyoy) Jamming tsaka Is This Love! The people should not fear the government, it is the government that should fear the people. Punong puno ng passion pagkasabi nya dito! And he got his mother’s moves! Ang galing galing talaga!! Best gig!!!!!! May part na para talaga syang si Bob Marley, nakakakilabot. Pareho pa sila ng porma. Siguro na-appreciate toh ng mga xaymacalites na nakucute-an sa dreads. o_O
May fire dance din nga pala.

I went with Harris, and his two reggae lovin friends, Lester & Darwin. Mind you, these two lucky lucky lucky bastards got to meet Ziggy, backstage pass and all. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!!!! Inggit ako! Should have brought Songs of Freedom and had it signed para lalong mainggit kuya ko, hehehe!
Basta! Kaso hindi masyadong alam ng crowd yung iba nyang kanta, hehe and ‘di na gaanong ka-energetic yung tao nung sya natumugtog siguro kasi medyo pagod na din. It started 4pm, bandang 1030 na ata sya tumugtog. Bad trip lang sa Love is my Religion part pumalya yung sound system, nakakaasar. Ang lame tuloy ng ending ng kanzert. Napikon pa ata sya. Pero its all good kahit na nung una one half lang nya nakikita ko kasi natatakpan ng puno yung other half. hehehe. Ang daming familiar faces. Madami daw ka-office si Harris, ang dami kong nakitang mga taga-Miguel. Andun yung foxy eco classmate ng aking blockmates, and yung mga tambay ng Agno. And, golly, kahit andun lang kami sa mortal’s arena, nakita ko pa rin ang lourd. with his girlfriend. Nyahaha! Lagi na lang kaming nagkikita sa mga events ng hindi sinasadya. Ampotah. We’re meant to be. With Jah’s blessings and all. Jokes!

Other news na hindi gaanong importante and relevant: Para akong tanga na na-I-insecure nung tingin ng tingin si harris sa paligid sabay sabi nya “baka makita ko pa dito si Mac”
“Sino si Mehc?”
(bahagyang hinto tas painosentang ngiting nakakakaba tapos lunok) “Ex ko na mahilig din sa reggae”
“Oh.”
Pero ok lang, good vibes. Natakpan naman toh ng sinabi nya sa kin nung patapos na yung event. Wooo, galing mambola! Hahaha!

Reggae Mistress lang naabutan namin na nagstart, as usual magaling pa din at ang gaganda ng makukulay nilang suot. Ang galing galing!!!
Junior Kilat! Ang galing galing din! Ibang klase ang charisma ni Budoy! Hehe! Ang galing!!! Anga ganda ng tunog. May hawak pa syang staff. Ang cool tignan.
Di namin napanuod ang Tropical Dep kasi kumain kami ng bibiQ

Ang ganda ng buong event! Twas a congregation of a bohemian nation a start of a pilgrimage to Mount Zion la la la. At eto pa, sumasayaw sayaw pa ko tas sa likod ko pala may camera ng MTV so malamang nakita na sa national tv ang pwet kong nagbabump and grind. Hahaha! Oh well, there goes my 15 sec of fame..

PS: Ang ganda ng built ni Victor Basa. Hahaha!